Today I am trying to be more present. Live in the here and now. Not allow my thoughts to drift to the future or to the past.
As a declared planner this is hard for me. I like to plan the future and make plans for it. I also like to think, and rethink a lot. But in training myself to be present in my thoughts I can also be more present with thoughts about Mom. I can refuse to let my mind wander off to ideas of where MS may take us, therefore making me scared. I can refuse to let my mind wander to memories of my past with Mom before MS, therefore making me sad. I can wander in the present and might find it’s actually more fun than the past or future.