I have tomorrow off. A mid-week break. Then it’s back to work on Thursday. It is kind of a strange feeling but also kind of nice at the same time. The mid-week holiday provides something to look forward to that is only 2 days away on a Monday instead of the usual 4 days away. At the same time it is also a bit random that we will all be back here after only one day off. But one day is one day and I’ll take it.
I also intend to use this holiday to take a mid-week-mental-break. Sister K and I have been talking a lot about Mom in the past 24 hours. A lot. This is in large part because Sister K has been home the past two days. We are very lucky to have each other because there are certain things about all of this that you can’t express to anyone else. Today on the phone she said, “Okay I can’t talk about Mom anymore.” It was a simple comment but at the same time it packed a lot of punch. It made me take a step back and realize how quickly this can become so consuming without even realizing it.
I am trying to figure out if it is going home that pushes Mom’s MS to the front of our mind or if it is just the nature of what is happening right now. I am reflecting a lot on that today and will probably continue to moving forward. It’s important because Sister K and I have to be careful that this doesn’t consume our lives. At the same time it is very consuming and a big part of our lives. I have to find a balance between the talking about it and pushing it to the back of my mind.
So tomorrow I am taking a mid-week mental holiday from this. I am going to try to just live and focus on the present. Not focus on or worry about Mom’s MS. Try to give myself a bit of a break.
Wishing you a wonderful 4th of July. What are your plans? Husband and I will be having a lowkey relaxing holiday at home, but we think we may be able to see fireworks from our apartment balcony. Do you like fireworks?