It’s okay to feel hopeful. I think I struggle with that sometimes. I struggle because I watch the reality of MS and how it conflicts with my hopes for Mom’s MS. I don’t want to “get my hopes up” but I also don’t want to live in a state of doom and gloom on the topic. My feelings come and go in waves. I go back and forth. Sometimes I go back and forth in the same day.
Mom started physical therapy again today with the therapist who is coming out to our house- going to call him Coach C. He is the same therapist Mom used in physical therapy so there is already a relationship there and we think that will help Mom to not be so negative about the experience. She genuinely likes Coach C and I have noticed that is the biggest hurdle of all with getting Mom to be into any new idea.
Similar to the beginning of most most new treatments, I feel hopeful. I don’t know what I am hopeful for exactly but just hopeful. The initial goal is to get Mom back on her old walker Pinky. Then I think we can all breathe a little easier and take it from there. My feelings of being hopeful could all change very quickly. It doesn’t seem to take much. One bad phone conversation and I am back to reality I feel like sometimes. But for the moment I am going to enjoy feeling hopeful.
How do you handle feeling hopeful even though you may be disappointed? Do you tend to lean more towards the glass is half empty or half full? How do you pursue a hopeful attitude during moments of uncertainty?
MS recess 
I THINK I lean toward glass half full…though sometimes the words out of my mouth don’t reflect it 🙂
At times it is appropriate to ask for hope. I have had many moments without it but like some cosmic boomerang it always returns. I spent some of these moments looking for it in front of me only to have it hit me in the back of the head. I try not to dwell in the past but in looking back on my life I can often see that I have been blessed, the trick then is to remember that history repeats itself.
I really like what you said and you are right in that history repeats itself- it repeats itself with good times and it repeats itself with bad times. But with the bad you have to hope, believe and know the good will come again. Thank you for reading and for your comment!
You are right, both repeat. Knowing good may return can offer hope and knowing the bad may return may be a reason to be grateful for the present. Take care.