I am in the midst of reading Hunger Games. If you need a complete escape from life that will take over your thoughts and consume you while you’re reading, this is it. I jumped on the bandwagon and am so happy I did. Sister K and I are reading them together. We have tried to get Mom to but she’s not very interested. That’s fine because it has given Sister K and I something new to bond over, as if we needed one more thing.
Hunger Games also provides a much needed escape. How often in life we just need an escape and we can’t exactly pack up and head to a beach everyday. Mom is escaping these days through games on her iPad- scramble, words with friends and newest draw with friends. Sometimes we escape through television shows and discuss them together, The Bachelor is a big family favorite. Our poor Dad. But the point is no matter what it is, sometimes you need an escape.
At lunch today Mom and I were talking about friends of mine who have started to have babies. I told her I didn’t feel ready for that and she said well I am in no hurry for that either. Her reasoning though is different than most Moms’ reasoning or what you would imagine- she is scared. She is scared of her physical limitations as a mother to me and a grandmother to someone else when the time comes. She is scared she won’t be able to offer me the support I need like her Mom helped her when I was first born. She is scared of this because it is a big unknown. What is also an unknown is how Mom’s physical state will be when this time comes. I told her we would just deal with that when the time comes and made some silly jokes about making Sister K come and Mom could just bark orders at her while I caught up on sleep. And she laughed, but at the same time it doesn’t change things. It doesn’t fix the unknown for us.
So after we had that chat I needed an escape. I’m not running from problems or fears but at the same time this is one specifically I can’t dwell on because I can feel my mind beginning to go crazy when I think about the topic too much. I can feel myself get upset. It’s hard when the future used to bring a sense of anticipation and excitement of things to look forward to for our family and now those moments have an underlying sense of fear.
So I escape. I have Hunger Games to thank for that escape today. Another moment it may be a tv show or a blog. The important thing though is to escape. I know it’s healthy. It allows me to take a break, to refocus so the parts of the future that are scary and unknown aren’t the front of my mind at a time when it’s not necessary for them to be there.
Do you believe in escaping from life sometimes? What’s your escape?